Crumbs of Life & Thoughts ~ TCK

Turn around, Simmering Glimpse of Hope, Decisions

2012-01-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

It s been some time since i post.

The slippery and narrow path situation is over.
Now I had already forgo one path for another.
God had blessed me with two once in a lifetime choices concurrently.
I can only choose one, look forward and dont turn back.
I can only say Visa isnt easy to get but i have to forgo it for something better.
Its the toughest choice in my life so far..

Little Steps on this Slippery road

2011-11-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

After about 9 months since the first time i tried, that i had successfully gain lil traction on this slippery path. However, the path is slowly closing once again, path becoming more obscure than previously.

I need to negotiate this slippery route at the fastest pace possible to avoid total obscurity, rendering me helpless for another year, or even more...............

I must, i must break through!

The Peak

2011-09-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

Peak has to be conquered,

First step is always

SET FORTH!

How long one has to lament? Lamenting about unable to conquer mountains, when one had not even set forth its path.

Proverbs

2011-09-16T14:10:00.000+08:00

“The first demand in war is decisive action. Everyone, the highest commander and the most junior soldier, must be aware that omissions and neglects incriminate him more severely than the mistake of choice of means.”

Heers Dienstvorschrift 300 Truppenfurhrung
(German Army Regulation 300, Command of Troops), 1936

"Heroes are made by the times."
-Traditional Chinese proverb

Time Flies!

2011-04-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since blogging, yet time just flew by like flash of lightning.

Many things had happen, and many decisions had been made and unmade.

-Marrying

-Honeymoon

-Went into investment again

-Esther being transfered to Beranang

-Discontent over low purchasing power, because being an engineer in Msia apparently doesnt mean you are well off. Basically if u are not in a big time company, chances are you struggles to decently provide a proper living for your family.

-May be it is just me.

-Doing well in investment

-Plan to and able to go to Aus.

-Re evaluating financial capacity.

-Preparing to go.

-Got an inspiration that God says that we focus wrongly.

-Return our focus to Msia.

-Gloomy

-Either biz in Msia, or literally being another millions of decently nice ppol grow old achieving to only sustain a small home with family.

-Looking back at Aus.

Spearheading

2010-07-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

One wonders what are the criterion qualifying a leader?

Why some people leads and other follows naturally while others tries so hard but could not seem to get the respect and acknowledgment of being a competent leader.

A true leader
a) respects - by believing, trusting and empowering his team by intrinsically guiding and slowly but surely giving responsibility and trusting the person will do it w/o constantly followup(provided the team member is a person who show some form of responsibility)

b) A true leader allocate job accordingly and making team member felt appreciated, rather than just being sidelined.

Its funny sometimes how people cant see this point but kept on driving team members and depressed when they could=nt. A leader ought to be able to inspire, not drive people to work .

BP Oil Spill Explained with Funny Skits

2010-07-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

How much i Miss...

2010-05-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

As time passes, as things become more mundane, i began to miss...

Miss my old buddies, those that we play, chat, going thru good n hard times together.
How i miss those time....

Property bound to fall?

2010-01-31T06:28:00.002+08:00

Just when the US recession worst's seem like had gone, and it seems that Malaysia got back to its foot and our properties had been still on the high. One question left... is it sustainable?

Yeah no doubt Penang and KL still had the lowest property valuation in comparison to other capital in Asia. But what fuels the buying?

As of today, everyone seems to be on the buy, and hysterically speak of the profit they could make in short span. Well i heard of these in 1997. Everybody in the stock market before it crashes. I spell gloomy environment in the properties area. Between now till dec 2010, i believe there would be sign of overheat of properties market.

Easy credit around the globe and even in Malaysia create an unsustainable environment. People say that i bullshit. Well lets see whether its sustainable. Cement and steel price high hence price of house is justifiable? Whos chicken and whos the egg? I am very certain cement and steel price rises due to demand in houses hence high price. It will be brought down to normalise level, that i am sure, but property price must first be unsustainable? So how do property price become unsustainable?

When productivity remains and liquidity from bank increases, inflation sips in. Money flow in the market is rather high due to low credit BLRs. So who wants to save when bank is only giving 2++%? "of cos buy properties" , now this the phrase that tells u one thing, everybody is buying, so pls stay on the side.

Well, we will see.

God, I can't do this anymore!

2010-01-15T13:18:00.003+08:00

" quoted from http://www.mangine.org/2010/01/bondye-mwen-pa-kapab-fe-anko.html"

I have been at a four births since being in Haiti and without exception, all of these women when they are nearing transition yell out, "Bondye-- mwen pa kapab fè anko!" (God, I can't do this anymore!)

Today as I was out checking on Francette (the lady who does laundry for the orphanage), I saw the Haitian Red Cross attempting to rescue someone who was trapped and still alive under a collapsed cement building. (And had been for 2 days.)

As I stood there listening, I heard people around me talking. Her first child was taken out from the rubble and was dead and lying in a body bag right in front of me. She wailed and wailed because of the death of her child.

But she sat there, clinging to her husband for support because she knew she still had a living child under the rubble. The rescue went on for a while. The smell of death made everyone cover their faces until someone finally brought out a jug of formaldehyde and started splashing it all over the body bag.

We waited and waited while people continued to dig. After some time had passed they were passing water in as they'd apparently found the person and were getting them water. More time passed... and while the rescue continued, the child died.

When they came out with the news that the child died the mother wailed and wailed and wailed, "Bondye! Mwen pa kapab fè anko!" In my mind, images of women delivering their babies flashed through my mind in a slideshow... "Bondye... Mwen pa kapab fè anko! Mwen pa kapab fè anko! Mwen pa kapab fè anko!"

And I realized as I was standing there that every time a woman said that during labor I knew she was wrong. I knew she could. I knew she was in pain but it would pass and it would be totally worth it. Today, my heart sunk as I realized this woman who was in such pain today was in a pain that would never pass...
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Sometimes when our sight are short, and our minds are so narrow, we could not even bother about what is happening around us. Ignorant bliss, some called it.. Sometimes i too felt helpless, considering the amount of help that we could offer as Christians. When we are feasting, these people wails and sing hymns or mournings in empty stomach. The meaning of indulgence rings so dearly sometimes.. I guess we need to know our real identity and look toward how to reach ppol in future rather than just being complacent. I for one, couldnt ignore, yet could not help... CK Tan

Jungle Affair in Msia's Road system

2009-12-20T07:59:00.002+08:00

Just when we complained about the failure of the government till this day to drive us momentously into becoming a developed nation, we have to really reflect upon ourselves, Are we ready?

If the Rakyat are not ready, it would be like giving monkeys a nice room, but the next day it would be damaged because the ceiling fans and hanging lamps will be used as swinging ropes, and dungs on the bed.

Let me share my despair, by offering 2 major points.

1st. lets us read this news

http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/12/20/nation/5341291&sec=nation

Road bully leaves couple badly hurt

PETALING JAYA: A motorist knocked down a couple on a motorcycle and then, after a confrontation, tried to run them down leaving the two severely injured.

Chong Zie Hau, 24, suffered broken bones to his right leg, right rib and collar bone, and a ruptured lung. He also received 12 stitches on his head.

His wife Tee Siew Yee, also 24, is believed to be in serious condition after suffering a crack on her skull and possible brain damage, and is in the Intensive Care Unit.

In the police report lodged on the matter, the two were said to be on their way to a night market near their home in Seri Kembangan around 8.30pm last Monday, when a Proton Wira cut into their lane at a T-junction and knocked them into a drain.

According to Chong’s sister, Chiew Seek, 27, the driver of the car did not stop, and Chong picked himself up and gave chase on his motorcycle before catching up a few hundred metres later.

She said a heated argument took place when the driver allegedly refused to acknowledge his mistake and challenged Chong to a fist fight.

Chong finally left the area for a nearby police station, after both parties agreed to lodge reports, she added.

However, while on their way to the station, the driver rammed his car into the couple.

According to eyewitness accounts, he even got out of his car after ramming them and kicked Chong several times while shouting at him before fleeing the scene. Chong and Tee were rushed to Hospital Serdang before being transferred to Sunway Medical Centre for treatment.

Subang Jaya OCPD Asst Comm Zainal Rashid Abu Bakar confirmed the incident. The driver of the car has lodged a police report.

An accident can bring out the animal instinct of some Msian immediately. It's sad to know that this is not only one case or two, but happens too often in accidents. Why do these unnecessary conflict arises? We wasnt taught in family or in school to resolve it amicably?? Or we come from violent family background? Well it s not only in the case of driving we can observed, just take a bus or LRT ride.. or taking lift in shopping malls. You will understand. My friends who went to Austria told me basically there's no whatsoever form of control to make sure the Austrians buy the tickets before getting onboard the train. This is because the people there have self honor, self examination and 1st class mentality. Imagine the same thing for our LRT or toll. Most will just jump onboard w/o any remorse. In Scotland, ppol line up under cold drizzling of rain to get into bus. Msia? if u choose to act in wholesome behaviour and line up (which i did long ago) you will only get your ride after 3-4 rides later because those who came to the station latest usually board the train first, if u know what i mean.

2nd factor is we are not even prepared to embrace education and culture programs in TVs, radios and internet. Switch on your TV, switch channel repeatedly... it s all entertainment, and worse , these entertainment oftenly insult our intelligence. Those advertisement are too raw, because anything too sophisticated the message cant across to the majority of the rakyat. Take a look at ads in overseas, maybe our neighbor's Spore and Thailand... you will feel that we are sheltered frogs.

For as long as our direct and indirect education arent able to equip us in proper mentality, for that long that we are gonna be living in 3rd class environment and facility.

Illusion of Money

2009-12-12T10:36:00.002+08:00

Rags make paper

Paper makes money

Money makes banks

Banks make loans

Loans make beggars

Beggars make rags.

-Anon. English 19th C.

An illustration of how money circulates in our economy. But this is a lil extreme. But really when one thinks of what is money, you will come to the conclusion that it is illusion played by ppol who master the skills of handling and control money and used the money they amassed to control capital(labor, equipment,land, intellectual) to enslave them into making bundles more money for them.

Some may wonder whether the phrase the rich get richer and the poor get poorer originates from the illusion of money

Driving too Slow..

2009-11-08T07:24:00.002+08:00

While we are on 'a' strange route, we may ask ourselves, is this the right path to the location, is this the fastest route there is? Or maybe we will ask, will there be obstacles using this route such as toll or traffic jam..... Many many doubtful questions.. So do i constantly ask myself..

I had been asking myself, with the car equipped to be only capable on this special route, it seems i have to choose this direction. Without money for a stronger vehicles,i m left with this darn path......

This path, is a very straight route and well maintained, and the name of the highway too, is very prestigious. All in all, its good for people who desire to reach at destinations which this road can bring you to.... But I have a direction that cant be reached thru driving consistently here... i will need to take a de tour somewhere in the future... predicting that such detour will eat into the time needed to reach my location.

Of coz there's only few options left..

to stay the course and drive at the most efficient and fastest speed, so that when its time to detour, i could bring along my driving skill and also such detour can be rebated by the time saved thru driving faster at the lane.

to do trailblazing.. since i donot have the vehicle needed for my direction, probably, i shud do a direct routing, by creating a new direct route... That, for one is risky , and to do such thing when u have a vehicle for the prestigious lane, to some is foolish.

to stay the course by day and to change my direction by night and by weekend, deeply affecting my day performance and my mental strength to continue on..

Dilemma .

Just When You Stop Chasing

2009-10-28T15:12:00.002+08:00

Its sad.. after much work in applying jobs with many companies... only few responded. So when it came to me on the same day i was offered 2 jobs at prominent companies, i was very excited, and thinking hard about the choice to take.

However, today , when things had set and i had made up my mind to go "that" company... I got a call from the company which i had first applied for. Thinking that there s no hope due to the imperfect resume i sent in, i had moved on long ago... that was sent 1.5 months back... Heck, it calls me today ...

Sad.. because the company was somehow my priority choice, and it was a lil dazzling and i felt very honored to be called to go for an interview.. well too late.. i also do not wanna build my reputation as a frog even before i join a single company.. So i rejected it.. well life goes on.

Am I angel ? am i evil?

2009-10-19T23:54:00.008+08:00

There is one pathetic angel or evil apps in facebook, which determines whether how evil or angel u are by just a click of an interactive button. it then generates a "very" accurate result whether u are a damn evil or pure angel.. well im intrigued by the attention given to it, somehow modern sapiens becoming more and more engrossed with mind numbing activities.

anyway, to join in the "fun" i tot maybe i would want to "participate" but at the same time "brush" up my excel formulas.. anyway, not really brushin up.. cos its a lil to simplified, not that i am intelligent, just wondering such basic apps which can be created by layman such as me also can gain so much attention from around the globe. By the way, from this thing i learn the usefulness of google doc , damn chun.

Aiseh, i can only project the spreadsheet here, if wanna interact with it, either u download my excel file or u wait till i finish studying vba ok ?
u can play my excel by keep clicking on the black area, same as the way u click the meter in facebook apps of ANGEL EVIL....

learning VB soon.
DOWNLOAD HERE

I can do all things Through Him Who Strengthens Me

2009-10-19T22:32:00.003+08:00

For more information read from his official website, or i will speak of it more later.

I am so moved by such love. the father, Dick Hoyt unceasingly participated in hundreds and hundreds of marathons, walks, triathons, Ironman and mountain climbing for decades without fail.... So that he could get one single reward from his son, a satisfied and big grin from his son.

Turn off his water Tap la! Sure work one...

2009-10-17T14:34:00.004+08:00

“Little do the people know that what the opposition government is giving comes from the Barisan Nasional Federal government,” he claimed when debating the president’s policy speech at the Umno General Assembly here on Friday.

Some uneducated Selangor UMNO delegate arguing over the fact that the aid given by Pakatan to rakyat was suppose to be from BN. i disagree

I have 3 big contention here.

Firstly, money from federal government is not BN's money. It is the money of rakyat and due to the confidence of the rakyat, BN is given the power to allocate fairly to the states in Malaysia. It is never the money of BN, unless it had been a practice that the money of Federal Gov is equal to BN's one, which could be interchange from treasury to pocket, hence such mentality arises. If there is no such practice in BN, then Selangor delegate Abdul Shukur Idrus should just keep quiet and do some study regarding the issue.

Secondly, the ppol had given Pakatan the mandate to rule and to allocate the fund, hence It is total bullshit to suggest that Federal shud turn off the tap of cash, which by the way , Selangor government should have accordingly , based on State - Federal relationship. Turning off the cash is like both Pakatan and BN is water distributor, and the Selangor ppol voted Pakatan in hope that he can distribute the water fairly and have changes. But BN think of dirty tactic, turn off the water, so Selangor cant distribute fairly and create shortages, thus creating disgruntled Rakyat that dont have enuff water, and blaming it on pakatan. Democracy at all time low. Or i shud say, Democracy is ALWAYS LOW

Thirdly, if they have such concern over the welfare of the citizen, they shud have engaged in such contribution long ago, for the past 50+ years... Y now???

Sadly, in Malaysia logic and rules of democracy dont work very well. The govement is always right and the rakyat always give BN the mandate to rule. Example, in Terrenganu oil royalty money is always channelled to rakyat thru State government. However, because of PAS winning the state back then, the government use direct federal chanelling instead of the state gov. Well, and such act was rewearded by strong mandate to BN in the next election. Well, sometimes injustice is accepted by the rakyat.....

The Birth of Internet; A blessing or a bane?

2009-10-12T14:46:00.004+08:00

That was one of the very interesting question raised by my Operation Research professor. I told him that it has pros and cons. He just lol, and say yeah, well we are in game theory class, every issue have winning feature and losing factor. By the way game theory is a decision making methodology in operation management, its not about video games.

That very question lingers in me for a very long time. Sometimes I m glad seeing ppol added value to themselves through the technology of internet. I had also seen many ppol wasting their precious time planting plants, taking care of restaurant, reading walls, playing ninja mobwar etc etc whole day long as though its an addiction. Its sad to see internet is not fully utilised for the good of himself/herself. I am not against facebooking, youtubing, googling. However, do it in moderation n not all the time. Time dont wait. blink of an eye, my sis daughter is about one year old... Blink of an eye we will grow old, what had we done to make full use of our time.. ? Facebooking and farming out billions of $$ in facebook apps? I also do all of these, but i dont do it because i need to, but for leisure n small fraction of my time...

Back to the question... I believe the birth of internet, being a blessing or a bane, really depends on microlevel; individuals, and at the same time culture.

Individuals
An individual can be very successful through partial support from the internet. Such as people who learns a great deal from tutorial, youtube helps, diy , information n knowledge, ideas and innovation, making money thru them, and put full use into their life. Of coz there are also great deal of individuals failed to make full use of their prime time, wasting it all by engrossing in those narrow minded non informational games and internet.

In macrolevel, i can definitely say that as of the trend today, in Malaysia, internet is a curse to majority of the citizen. Why? They do not make full use of it... only narrow mindedly utilising it for entertainment after work , or worse during work. If the trend remains, the competitiveness of Malaysian will lack behind other cultures, rendering us becoming non- valuable workforce, unable to stay competitive because of the education system in Malaysia and also the utilisation of their time to gain value.
I had been to US forums, i m not the type who idolises any culture or men, but i m perplexed, by their enthusiasm/hobbies in increasing their knowledge and their understanding.. etc. There are ppol in US who build rocket as hobbies, and they learn more physics in forums than in ur physic classes. There are also groups of engineers who spend their time forumming and building DIY compressors, programmings that serve a purpose. small sect of LYN had some form of good headings i believe n hope..

As a conclusion, i am not generalising every malaysian, i pointed out the microlevel and macrolevel point of view. It is when the summation of individuals in malaysia point towards the bad side of internet than to the good. i hope that somebody n many ppol can prove me wrong about our internet culture in Msia. By the way The song i am attaching speaks to many of us in our prime time; 100 years

He had been wasting his precious time in 15 as though u can buy time again. During 22-45 he was too busy organizing his busy life and family to cared of, he loss track of time. By 45, he began to realise, however its difficult to gain time back, most likely he s in depression(mid life crisis). Hop Hop blink blink 67 ad, the man grown in wisdom and wiser, however time flies. Another instant hes 99, just waiting to die, he was advising the 15 years old that still have precious time, that instead of losing those time, choose to use ur time wisely.. If not will regret... Catch those word reflect on our life behind, now and future, u will think twice. By the way, how many ppol got 100 years to live by ? so start maybe the numeral number in lyric must alter abit to what u think u have... cold hard fact, not being cynical.

Working Dreams out

2009-09-30T23:50:00.004+08:00

Christopher Gardner: Hey. Don't ever let somebody tell you... You can't do something. Not even me. All right?

Christopher: All right.

Christopher Gardner: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.

My motto
Excellence – to deal with everyday life activity with excellence

Inspiration – to have innovative thoughts to deal and handle every circumstances, regardless whether the circumstances is good or bad, strive for best outcome

Aspiration – Ambitiously gazing, aggressively gaining ground towards ultimate goal. Do the right thing, not do the thing right.

I m determined, to stay the course even when pails and pails of cold water pour onto my head by people around me. I must not deviate from the path i had set.

2009-09-24T14:27:00.000+08:00

Auto biography

2009-09-06T19:05:00.003+08:00

Heheh a simplified version where trivial Q went recycle bin

3. What is your current problem?
ASSIGNMENTSS!! loads of it..

4. What makes you happiest?
Achieving the goals i had set.. or overachieve it..

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Jewel foolish games

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
Intervals of my short lunches and dinners. when there are lack of discovery's , National geographic or factual channels.. n other channels is dramatic crying to hell type of taiwan series.. n the others is waktu solat.... .. realli too kiddy they will earn my wrath. ridiculing Malaysia's level of brain level..

11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
Cantonese, Malay and some Mandarin lor

12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
Err ... P n C la.. ok ..... there are 2 actually..

13. Do you ever watch MTV?
Yeah .. fan of early christina aguilera genie bottle

14. What's something that really annoys you?
Deviation from set plans.... or ppol who like to bring their prestige up in front of monkeys(around guys who dont sense the person's level of insecurity is drowning)

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Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s):
Yea.... most of the time shallow though... once awhile deep..

2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?:
married

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Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream:
31st Baskin .. very bitter n very sour. hate sweet stuff

2. Season:
cyclical seasons.. not just summer damn it..

3. Shampoo/conditioner:
Need one ar? heheh jk la.. trivial questions...

4. Favorite Thing:
would want a gold coin or gold bar 99.99

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Chapter 4: Do You..

2. Do you write on your hand? :
often. hope to own indellible ink , so my notes wont just lost n i forgot wat i wrote

3. Call people back? :
depend how close or how important, is there a responsibility to do so

4. Believe in God? :
Christ Jesus alone

5. Any bad habits? :
Rage, n mild curses,, and sometimes embedded powerful sarcasm.....

6. Any mental health issues? :
think so.... heheh

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Video that speak for itself

2009-09-04T18:18:00.002+08:00

I canz boxz

2009-08-31T16:00:00.001+08:00

Malaysia, Rising to Fame in CNN

2009-08-24T15:45:00.004+08:00

Malaysia was up in the front page of CNN website front cover, but all for the wrong reason. It highlighted the case of a Muslim woman, who would be the FIRST woman in SOUTHEAST ASIA to be caned for alcohol consumption.

Its another of our record breaking event, overtaking our "successful" project of sending our prominent and competent angkasawan aka space tourist to do some essential research and experiments, but up to today nothing was published yet...

Im wondering if the recent case of a 25 yr old police constable would be charged under sharia law for being in a "compromised position" with his girlfriend, when his ex wife broke into the house and splash acid. Under Sharia law he suppose to be having khalwat with the girlfriend, even if its only being alone with her w/o supervision.... but in compromised position?? heheh Lets see whether the title of "police constable" can saved him .

Facing Interrogation. 101 Tips in 3rd world countries

2009-08-24T11:55:00.003+08:00

Facing interrogation

Tips for survival

Heheh i found this when reading people's comment

Before being arrested, dont bother arranging for a lawyer. Since most often than not, 3rd world country authorities do not allow the presence of lawyer during interrogation as it "would affect the interrogation process" especially in political cases.. But one thing can help you survive the ordeal.

Remember to strap yourself with parachute bag, u never know.. even witness of cases might need it too. Just in case.

Moments

2009-08-22T20:47:00.004+08:00

Some momentS were precious while some were dreadful.

I wanna note done whatever picture memories i had kept in my brain in details for now.. just afraid they would come a time all these are gone.

Precious moment when i was specially tagged as competent fighter after "mistakenly" almost KOed an opponent. The new specially chosen opponent was huge 1.6-1.7 of my size.

Dreadful moment when faced with opponent that very much swifter than myself, when i rely on swiftness as my competitive advantage.

Precious moment when chosen to be part of school's Maths and IQ qualification round.

Precious moment when being entrusted with high expectation and being very much appreciated and awarded for both my martial art prowess as well as in academic. Those were the moments that i had the images still stored in my head.

Precious moment captured even at the age of 5, picture of myself being satisfied because i understood how to read an analog clock taught by my teacher.

Weird moments when i find myself always alone and without friendship interaction when i waited for my kindergarten bus daily.

Embarrassing moments when "the girl" approach me for chats in my kindergarten class. She was also my dancing partner in performance. Was really freaking me out, must be blushing all the way.

Precious moments when i kept memory pictures of me playing alone with myself in the kindergarten class. Pictures of me rolling up plasticin into a spherical ball and cut it into pieces and reroll again, all by myself haha.

Scary moment as i enter my kindergarten bus and was wondering what i forgot to bring... it was always the plastic pencilbox. Was so fearful that my teacher will skew or whack me ... will have high level of adreline , just like when faced with enemies. Teacher didnt whack me though.

Dreadful moment when, knowingly gangs of enemies were waiting for me to settle our issue in padang, yet i stupidily went.

Precious moment when Yong woi was there with me throughout, not sure whether he helped or not as i was "busy"

Regretful memories when thoughts of how i let my Sir down again n again.

Shocked moments when however swift my feet shuffling is, i was still being hit in the neck during sparing.

Depressing moment when you knew very well you fell into a trap ppol set for you to gain from your downfall, and have to pay the price.

Precious moments when you knew that you can always run around till late evening and play all you want, the very next day there is no consequences. Kindergarten and primary school.

Mentally exhausted moment when you have to face harsh disciplinary punishment because i failed to do my large amount of assignments in primary skool.

Awkward moments when i hate to have starting conversation with acquaintances.

Robbed in Bangsar Shopping Complex BSC

2009-08-22T08:09:00.002+08:00

Dinner in Chilli's and Grill bar, 3 person in a crowded restaurant sitting down also can get robbed and nobody offered any meaningful help. Wou! robbery within perimeter of the complex. Cool ,Malaysia boleh

"By Siti Zubaidah Abdullah Bernama - Saturday, August 22

KUALA LUMPUR, Aug 21 (Bernama) –- A quiet night out among three friends at a restaurant in a shopping centre here last Sunday night turned into a traumatic experience for all of them.
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Katrina Danielle, 25, an intern with an international organisation in the capital, was having dinner with a couple from Australia at the Chilis Grill and Bar Restaurant in the Bangsar Shopping Complex (BSC) when five men who were drinking at the next table attacked and robbed them, hitting their male friend at the back of his head with a steel chair, splashing beer at the girls and sprinting away with their handbags.

"It is a miracle Paul was not killed. The leg of the chair was bent from the impact. It was distressing that the incident took place without any quick action or intervention by the Chilis staff and the other diners in the crowded restaurant," she told Bernama in an interview.

"I'm angry that no one from the shopping complex or restaurant came to our aid immediately. They were slow to act," said Katrina, who made a report and gave a statement at the Brickfields police station the following day.

"I cannot believe that something like this can happen there...I will never go back to that restaurant again," added Katrina.

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TRAUMA-SNATCH THEFT 2 KUALA LUMPUR

She claimed that the management of the shopping complex as well as the restaurant did not want to take any responsibility for the lapse in security and pointed fingers at each other.

The BSC management were quick to claim they had asked the Chilis management to beef up security before, while the people at Chilis suggested that BSC should be asked to do something.

To add insult to injury, the restaurant offered meal coupons to the three friends, as if money and such material benefit can just wipe out the nasty experience, without anyone taking responsibility and with no specific action to prevent a recurrence.

Katrina, who had just returned from abroad four months ago, said the traumatic incident also left a bad impression on her friends who were visiting Malaysia for the first time.

"We were eating and chatting in the open area of the restaurant for about 20 minutes and suddenly this happened," said Katrina, a resident of Bangsar, who added that she frequented the neighbourhood restaurant about twice a month previously.

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TRAUMA-SNATCH THEFT 3 (LAST) KUALA LUMPUR

Katrina hoped that the shopping complex would improve security and install CCTVs at strategic places, including the open area, to make it safer for patrons.

Apart from cash and other valuables, she also lost a photo which she kept in her purse of her late elder brother, who died tragically five years ago, and a thumb drive containing her research work.

She also hoped that the police would investigate the case thoroughly."

Reflow Process (purely personal archive)

2009-08-20T10:09:00.003+08:00

- Presoak heat - 180 C for 2 min . dont exceed 5 C per sec
- Low T activator work prevent oxidation

- reflow dwell - 180-200C . Steady. make uniform temp on object
- medium T activator to clean solder and adjacent
- 50 secs

-Reflow zone - 180-200 upward to 217-260 C. melting pt of lead free solder.
- most component damage at 260C.
- 80 secs .
- Hi T activator for cleaning.
- solder work on its pad by its own surface tension(liquid form ad ma)
- plastic encapsule component to withstand this 260. will crack
plastic to relieved pressure.
- pressure related damage eg popcorn crack (crack beneath die, causing
electronic failure when moisture n contaminant entered into it.
- cooling - can be more rapid than presoak because no solvent left. but
precaution on the thermal expansitivity of the board instead.

Dewetting problem during reflow process

dewetting- unwanted process, destruct thin film.
Shifted ball & wrinkled bump defect

Solution
adding surfactants can have significant effect on the spreading coefficient. Decrease in surface tension, So S >0. wetting can occur

Increase wafer stop sensor sensitivity from 10 to 100, re-tighten conveyer motor delay ( Resp: Tay, Tan TP) INFINEON

Failing as Learning

2009-08-16T02:03:00.003+08:00

Failure is always a painful event in anyone's life, if you ever encountered it. I had plenty of mini failures and a couple significant ones in my closet. It hurts, but every time i stand up again , i use those as my guiding light and take it as a lesson. I always adhere to the principle that i made for myself, to pick every opportunity cautiously, plan very carefully against any unforeseeable failures, get enough information, and tap on other ppol exp if particularly i did not have any exp for the specific opportunity.

I donot really enjoy ppol advicing against taking any risk,just because the person is still young and without experience. Where the hell did experience comes from? I suppose from trying in the first place i guessed... lol . Anyhow i know its for my own good, but following that will eventually buck me down to become just another 9-5 guy. To prevent from drastic falls, one should create the barrier/limit to short the position if it touches the lower limit that you set and have some sort of insurance ( by doing thorough preparation beforehand).

Thomas Edison tried 100 times, failed 99 times. the 100th time he succeeded, and i believe the 99 times he failed enable him to learn how to succeed in the 100th time.

Being safe by not taking any opportunity just because of lack of exp is not wise. Life is like a sigh of breathe, breath in breath out, there u go another person is gone (u or me or anyone), so why not make the full use out of our short life.. Make it spark, make it glow.

McD stole my half-Cheeze

2009-08-16T01:45:00.005+08:00

Im an ardent McD fillet-O-Fish fans for like almost two decades... I m not sure whether you guys realized or not, but McD Malaysia had decided to halves the cheese contained in my fillet-o-fish for like 1-6 years back. My bro went to Indonesia McD, told me their fish fillet is full cheese , im not sure, but if this is true it can only confirm one thing. Malaysia, still have long way to go before it realizes cutting back on quality aint the way to increase profitability. We are supposed to be in quality based industries after years of being in low cost manufacturing decades ago.Now not only our industry's quality is compromised but also my fish fillet cheeze...

I will upload the cheese deficient burger when i ever go McD to savor the incomplete burger .....

After due research is done, it looks like the McD claimed that it had always been half cheeze all the while, while numerous ppol who had been eating fillet o-fish for decades (JUST LIKE ME) knew that it was once full cheeze.... If i knew i m to be shortchange by McD, i would have saved some proof (rotten full cheeze fillet o fish or pic of it) . Damn

Convocation 2009

2009-08-13T11:19:00.002+08:00

This convocation did not take enough photographs. Forgot to bring my camera and my family were waiting along with a baby. So didnt have enough time to walk around. Never mind, this is gonna be my motivation to finish my Meng degree next year, so that i can take proper photos.

Assassin's Creed 2 gameplay

2009-08-03T11:21:00.006+08:00

I watched the gameplay of assassin's creed 2 and would like to share it here. And before that i have a bonus video of real life Assassin's creed 1 Altair found in action.

Altair in gameplay

Altair in Action! (Real Life Action)

Assassin's Creed 2

Recurring Dreams

2009-07-25T01:20:00.001+08:00

”Staring Into The Abyss – A Close Reading of Silent Hill 2
by Doris C. Rusch

By making the unconscious conscious, the “stuck” or “lost” patient should become able to cope with his / her issues and to move on to lead a happy and productive life. The key to psychotherapy thus is awareness. “To get over his symptoms, a person must face exactly that which his defenses were created to protect him from; he must face his worst nightmare.

quoted directly from www.etc.cmu.edu/etcpress/node/282

Malaysia Monopoly Game

2009-07-23T21:42:00.002+08:00

image from :http://unclutterer.com/tag/board-game/

Quoted by chedet blog Kaki dalam kasut from one comment

Very very interesting and very layman yet true to the end Tanahliat (info and message found below)

He brought up the current issue of Malaysia is as though we are playing MONOPOLY Game. i would like to modify a lil of his theory though to increase the effectiveness in delivering the description of Malaysia n NEP issue.

2 players and one Gamemaster.
Player 1 = Bumi-Malay , Player 2 = Non bumi , 3rd = Gamemaster = Government/UMNO

Rule of the game . To survive till the end with most value and assets.
Since 1970's on, the rule of the game is one sided. Player 1 (P1) get extra and more than P2 every time he goes one round and subsidized house and hotels. And as for P2, he s slapped with several disadvantages (forfeit round payment, go jail, heavy taxes).P2 took the challenges despite all these one sided rules because P2 desperately wanted to be in the game after watching the game for years(staying in the country without citizanship).

However after decades of playing this game, the amount of assets of P1 remain about the same, while P2 got what they wanted despite being set back by these rules. So while P2 got lotsa assets, P1 kept complaining without changing their strategy or way of playing or do something about it.

The problem isnt about the rules of the games, its the tactic used by P1. Despite all policies and benefits, P1 still loss, there must be something wrong with the way of playing. And the worst part is , now is different from 30 years ago, we Malaysians (P1 and P2) have to also compete internationally due to globalisation, and the international players dont find the rules interesting at all, bringing all FDI to neigboring countries. At the end of time, it is not only certain ethnic that are dying, but whole Malaysia will failed to compete, losing all competitive edge and dying out in the midst of other growing nations.

Moral of the story, P1 and P2 will both die together trying to play the game at their own level, forgeting the greater issue.

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By tanahliatAuthor Profile Page on July 22, 2009 11:35 AM

Salam Tun,

Pernahkah Tun main Monopoly?

it is a board game that everyone been given same amount of money,and buy any buildings or airports or facilitys you want.
The one stand till the end won the game.

Monopoly sebagai negara kita (contoh)
Permain A(bumiputra esp:Malayu) dan Permain B (non-bumiputra)

kerana PErmain A adalah Bumi, oleh itu, mereka dapat lebih wang dari permain B.

ok, permainan ini sudahla kita main berpuluh-puluh tahun, dan Permain A yang ada wang extra masih macam dahulu, tetapi Permain B sudah memiliki barang yang mereka bejuang(kadangkala, mereka kena masuk jail, tak boleh angkat wang extra slpas satu round habis, accidently kena tax berat).

okay, sampai sekarang,A cakap permainan ini tak adil, B sudah dapat banyak tetapi A masih tak dapat apa2 pun....(get my point)

kawan2 sekalian, Kita bukan main monopoly ni, dunia ini bukan permainan, jika kamu tidak sedar dan hanya blame kaum lain, what will it end up?

maaf, sudah lama tak guna Bahasa Malaysia.......If I wrote anything wrong, I am sorry at the first place.

terima kasih

Liat
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Latest blog in chedet ~Dissapointment & Hope~

2009-07-23T20:50:00.003+08:00

Tun Mahathir just brought up his latest thought on Najib's work of partially abolishing some of the NEP policies.

Guess what? I am very disappointed with Tun Mahathir, despite the progress he brought to this nation.

I am also a lil more contented and hopeful as i read thru the comments especially from Malaysian Malay. Some of them seen thru the problem of current situation, and it is never of look like what Tun Mahathir had pictured.

To summarise, Tun Mahathir say that the non-malay especially chinese had been trying to do away with most of the policy favoring Malay in order to snatch away the few things that they had.

and that the chinese is the Tuan of this country, and right now Najib n his gang is kowtowing to the demands of non malays. It is really sad to hear it from this man about his theory.

I am a chinese who had always been proud of being Malaysian. I had many Malay friends and had no problem with them or have any racial barrier too. But to me, NEP is actually not effectively helping out some sector of Malay who desperately need this to alleviate their situation. NEP had all these while been a tool to enrich the Elite malays, politician, and ppol who are well connected with UMNO. This after all does not fulfil the purpose of NEP, which is to alleviate the status of the Malay so that they can compete at the same level and ultimately globally. My personal stance is that im all for a policy that can effectively raising up competent Malay so that we can integrate as malaysian and not perished as an uneffective nation. However it is really sickening that all these money is placed into pocket of filthy rich malays , who become richer while those kampung ppol and poor ppol are unable to get anything out of it. Not only that this policy had been dragging us as a nation as it does not promote productivity but merely circulating the capital we have around, but not raising new productivity. The sadddest thing i read is that up to this moment , ex PM of malaysia still do not recognise indian n chinese and sabah sarawakian as Malaysian, but rather treating us as though we are the invaders who took everything.

From the point of view of Chinese, i would like to remind readers that, despite all these policies and barriers and without help, the Chinese was able to be in such position because we work around problems for milleniums (4000 tahun). It is not wrong for us to survive well in the harsh condition aint it ? WHY blame the CHinese for all these things? The policy is there for malay and why blame us when our position is better relatively? If we wanna find scapegoat, it would definitely be the body that implement these policies. They are the most well fed, fat and sitting around in offices. And not to be racist at all, i have to blame some Bumis who did not fully utilised these bonus and benefits that they had. However im by no means being prejudiced, because as of late, and of past, i have seen many malay entrepeneurs and successful professional doing well. The problem is implementation and the attitude of some of the malays. And it is never the fault of non malays, who gained no benefit at all but merely trying to make a better life in a place called Malaysia, called hometown.....

In his blog, not hopeless though, i am somehow lifted up becoz there are still Malays who can see thru the truth despite all the blatant accusations. it is not one or two but large number of them.

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By Saya pun MelayuAuthor Profile Page on July 22, 2009 12:28 PM

Tun,

Thanks for being our PM for 20+ years; in fact, you have to thanks us by giving u and your party the votes.
But for now, i hope you can keep your mouth shut and enjoy your life with your grandson, because you have did nothing better then white elephant project, corruption encouragement, and give all the Malay a "tongkat".

Do you think all the poor come from MALAY? And all the rich are from NON-MALAY? Where did you get the facts from? And did you ever study the reason behind? It is all because of you, Tun Mahathir. All the rich are from UMNO, your relatives, your subordinate’s relatives, relatives of your subordinate’s subordinate, etc.

Yes, i can't deny that you did something good for Malaysia, but at the same time, you ruined Malaysia too. You have ruled Malaysia for 20 over years. You have a good chance in bringing Malaysia into well developed country, but you didn’t. All you care is how much you can earn from any giant project? How many government project your son can get? And what can you do to put Anwar into jail?

You corrupted the police department; you damage Malaysia’s Justice System, you spoiled your politician, and you want to deteriorate the relationship of Malaysian now?
What is NEP? It is just a tool for you and your party to “korek” more money.
Thanks to NEP, MALAY had lost its competency.
Thanks to NEP, MALAY cannot stand on their own feet without NEP.
Thanks to NEP, MALAY had felt that they are the world most “pampered baby”, and didn’t even know the risks behind.

Wake up, it is time to wake up, Malay! Throw away “tongkat”, No NEP, stand up and fight, compete with other races, give Malaysia a bright future. We are all Malaysian.

By the way, saya pun Melayu.
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Places i been to

2009-07-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

Create your own travel map or travel blog

TripAdvisor: airline tickets

Regrets from the past

2009-07-21T23:25:00.006+08:00

The recent case of Pulau Ketam, where villagers gathered the stray dogs and abandon them in an empty island, causing many of them to die, had actually brought to my mind about the state wellbeing and the maltreatment of my ex-dogs.

Lets start the story from here...

Approximately about 16 years ago, i was living in a large corner house in Taman Bukit Desa. Being a large house, located in Taman Desa area and placed right next to the junction, it had became the constant target of burglars and robbers. We had breakins and robberies of about 5-6 times throughout our stay there. To prevent these incidents and to protect our home, my parents decided to rear dogs as a prevention measure. We have a handful of dogs during our stay. Some pedigree, a few not. All in all It does help to prevent the frequent breakins and robberies but .....

I wanna highlight the story about my last two dogs that i had. They were actually brought back by my dad from the Pasar Pudu area when these pups were still young. We named them "Hak Gau" ~black dog~ and "Pak Gau" ~White Dog~, because one of the dog had a black furry face, while the other had a skin color face. They were both creamy brown. It was fun and all having cute pups but their ordeal began subsequently as they grow bigger.

The pic above look like my "Hak Gau".Pic taken from http://lh5.ggpht.com/yyseow/SLpuOMAWESI/AAAAAAAACmU/vvSAvPZ7YNE/s800/han01.jpg

Because of the inconvenience parking in and out of the home, fearing that my dogs will run out, my dad decided to get builders to build them a concrete shed. It is quite small, comfortable enough to walk round and round but not enough for exercise. Ever since that point of time, it became a prison for both of them. I loved them secretly but back then i was quite young and fear that they will bite me , or get scolding if i release them, so i did not do anything. They stayed in there for more than a decade with little chance of freedom. As of today i am still very guilty because i didnt take any initiatives to free them once a while. The only petty act i did was consistently stealing cookies, breads and sometimes purposely leave chunks of meat from my meal so that they can eat of it. Without such, they usually end up eating only bones. Well i am not so angelic though. There are times, as young mischievous boy, i would use water hose to wash them with high pressure spray using my thumb to increase the water pressure. To act macho, i would taunt the dogs in the midst of my siblings. Tried to loved them only behind the scene, when nobody looking. I guess its due to my big macho guy i have to be in order to overcome sibling conflicts i had back then lol, but at the expense of not showing love to dogs, and family.

They were still alive when we shift to Bukit Oug Townhouse. They were to be returned to the Pasar area, i felt so sad and helpless, as i donot have any idea else to help them, maybe after all it would be better for both of them after all these years. It turned out to be rather happy and sad ending, one of my dog is being well treated by one uncle from the neighborhood. I believe he pitied the lives that these dog had went thru. But sadly the other one had to be placed in the market. There is nothing i can do except to think and emo behind closed door every night. Haih Sad story still lingering in my brain .

So the moral of this story is to treat the dog that u have nicely and humanely. They have soul and they love.they will feel sad and get depressed all their live if u treat them badly. Pedigree of non, they have soul. The love they repay u is priceless. And for those who wish to help unfortunate dogs from Pulau ketam and beyond , you can volunteer, donate food,money, adopt or etc from http://www.furryfriendsfarm.org/
or http://furryfriendsfarm2006.blogspot.com/ .

M.Eng Graduation

2009-07-18T11:42:00.002+08:00

MySpace Countdown

Meeting come to no avail - MACC official instructed to be tight lipped

2009-07-17T13:59:00.002+08:00

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/index.php/malaysia/32556-pakatan-stonewalled-over-teohs-death

Sources said MACC officials remained tight-lipped, saying they were under instructions not to say anything. Kit Siang called the meeting a waste of time.

Somehow its funny, it only took about approx 9-10 hours from the time the body to be found , for police to arrive, to interviewing , to finding evidence, and physical and mathematical calculation of the fall, autopsy , to wrapping up the case as sudden death without any apparent foul play, to release press statement. it took only mere 9-10 hours to interview witnesses, suspects, gather clues , evidence and calculation and checking background of the dead, but when it comes to interviewing mr teoh beng hock (as a witness and not suspect) it took about 11-12 hours to interview one witness of corruption case. i cant help but wonder if it makes sense on the little time took to do so much in the death investigation and yet such a long period to interview an innocent witness just for a case that is of low profile and no death involve.

Persistent widow

2009-07-17T09:28:00.003+08:00

Everyday i would make a point to read at least one chapter of the bible. Yesterday is supposed to be this chapter in turn. Interesting as it spoke to me ... Persistent prayer and God will take care of his elected and lastly will he find faith when He comes.

Luke 18
The Parable of the Persistent Widow
1Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. 3And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.'

4"For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, 5yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' "

6And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"

http://mitchlewis.net/blog/articles/the-parable-of-the-persistent-widow/
The Parable of the Unjust Judge and the Persistent Widow

Now let's look at the parable.

There's a crooked judge. Judges are supposed to be fair, impartial and honest. They're not supposed to let the rich and powerful just do whatever they want, but throughout Israel's history there seems to be an ongoing problem with bribes. The prophets are constantly denouncing crooked judges who only thought about themselves when making decisions.

There's a widow. Widows were usually poor and powerless. There was no social security system. No retirement plan. No survivor benefits. If a widow didn't have a family member to take care of her, she was in deep trouble. And if some unscrupulous person wanted to take advantage of her weakness – to take away her property – she depended on the judges to set things right.

This woman got the shaft from the legal system – like so many did – but for some reason she didn't give up. She just kept bugging the judge to make things right. Eventually, just to get rid of her, he gave her what? Justice.

This is one of those "how much more parables." If this self-centered jerk eventually did the right thing, how much more will God do what is right.

Jesus says that God hears the cries of his chosen ones who call out to him day and night for justice and vindication and deliverance, and he will certainly answer their prayers.

Teo Beng Hock - No foul play at all ~

2009-07-17T01:28:00.005+08:00

Latest news - no foul play and classified as sudden death . police investigation

1st mystery - his body was found at 1.30pm . Mr Teo's boss , Ean only found out at about 4pm from press. Parents was not informed too. Why so long, and why MACC as custodian didnt bother to call at such long duration ? I used to get sick, and a small skool such as mine have SOP (standard of procedure) to call parents immediately. Maybe MACC is a new set up , so SOP is not set or implemented yet . acceptable

2nd mystery - he brought his car to MACC , released at 3.45am, and suppose to be marrying on the next day , would want to sleep at MACC after investigation on a couch becos he was tired? got car but don wan to go home...

3rd mystery - MACC got no SOP , only one officer integorrating him?

Conclusion - after all these apparent clues, evidence and puzzles i believe whole country's rakyat will totally believe that despite all these mysterious evidences, he actually choose to take his own life, as all the evidence really point towards him wanting to commit suicide(based on police investigation). No foul play at all.

Anyway, with all the evidence away from suicide, but expert investigation from police determines that he jump n no foul play, i guess we should believe it; anyway our education level is as though that we were back in 1950's , simple explanation will satisfy all of us.

RIP Teo Beng Hock

2009-07-16T22:14:00.004+08:00

I would like to send my condolences to the family of Teo for his death. Above all politics, he is just an ordinary man , serving his constituents, and about to get marry tomorrow, it is a real disappointment and shame that he died at the age of 30.

A thorough investigation and transparency and a good explanation must be given by the MACC as he had died during or right after investigation , and died within the building. I believe if lame explanation were to be put forth, MACC will loss every credibility; if at all it has.

Nazri: Jangan tuduh, tunggu siasatan

2009-07-16T22:07:00.004+08:00

He claim that we should not put an assumption before the cause of the death of Teo Beng Hock , the secretary of DAP MP ,is investigated; to prevent misjudgement from the public, but he himself made a very easy judgement and deviated the society already. Now hear this :

Mengulas lanjut, Nazri berkata: "Saya dapat laporan awal dari SPRM mengatakan dia dah dilepaskan selesai soal siasat semalam.

"Jadi, dia patut balik rumah. Kita pun tak tahu dia nak terjun bangunan tu...," kata Nazri ketika dihubungi Malaysiakini.

Kita pun tak tahu dia nak terjun bangunan tu.... Means we also dunno he will jump from the building. So that means he is so sure he jump and not accidentally fell, enemies(business,public enemy etc) push,or other parties who s closely involve the investigation had something to do with it.There are so many many many leadings from here which is still under investigation. I tot from initial interview he say let the authority investigate first. Why make assumption before investigation? TO persuade the public to misconception of the truth ? This is a very mysterious case, with him going to marry tomorrow and after investigation that his death took place. Without pointing finger to anyone, any party or any factors like what Nazri did (pointing that he did it) , a fair and well investigation is ought to be done. It is better to wait than to start pointing fingers even before the investigation result is out. It is very unfair to the family to say that he jump even before an thorough investigation is done. Sheesh

Victimized

2009-07-16T12:24:00.004+08:00

The hijack post was created by pepper. Swt , didnt know that my username could be easily broken into . At first glance tot really kena sabo and was a lil annoyed that the saboteur even took time to dedicate me a song. LOL. Like a burglar , after stealing ur stuff, give u RM 1-2 to make u happy . haha. After that i read properly only knew it was pepper

PS. I had just stolen yingyi's blog playlist to be placed here. Imeem not nice , slow streaming and 30 secs preview only. Goodness. Thank you ying yi, same taste, lol , depression songs... hahaha

It is better to start small and act than to talk so big and forget to act

2009-07-16T12:08:00.002+08:00

(Image retrieved from :http://blogs.menupages.com/southflorida/category/1broward/ , IKEA's copyrighted logo)

Ingvar Kamprad, successful founder of IKEA , started out as what someone might label him as a low life, lame biz method or not even a biz, but nevertheless with silence and perseverance he became the world's largest producer of furniture. All in all without any public share holding mind u .

"Kamprad began to develop a business as a young boy, selling matches to neighbors from his bicycle. He found that he could buy matches in bulk very cheaply from Stockholm, sell them individually at a low price and still make a good profit. From matches, he expanded to selling fish, Christmas tree decorations, seeds and later ballpoint pens and pencils" ~wikipedia~

Lowlife aint it ? selling despicable goods in the eye of so called "professionals'" eye. But decades down the road, his perseverance and entrepreneur direction had brought him to a level where "professionals" will change their tones and start saying, "well we could reach this level but we chose to sacrificed this for the sake of our great and selfless contribution in our respective fields" . Well said.

As opposed, i do very much believed that fellow entrepreneurs would have different perspective of this little work of Ingvar, as i too look at it differently. To me, these are the distinct unique nature of successful bizmen, they would start small and aim big , and care less of the jeering by "professionals". To me , it is better to start small and act than to talk so big and forget to act. Well the last phrase (n olso my writings) is my copyright ok , remember cite my name n pay royalty when use this phrase ya!

HIGHJACKED !

2009-07-16T00:20:00.007+08:00

yay~! managed to hack your gmail account (heh heh XD)
wanna dedicate this song to you~
have a beautiful day ^^

pepper :p

*i dunno y imeem only let to stream 30secs T_T*

pls stream here:

pls download the song here:
http://www.4shared.com/file/69127239/7f334954/Plain_White_Ts_-_1234__I_Love_You__.html?dirPwdVerified=646c5c58

Hitler's Addiction

2009-07-13T13:53:00.004+08:00

This is a documentary about the last days of WW2 in Hitler's bunker. The vid show the hidden reason for the defeat of German in WW2. Not resources problem, not Allied victory, but addiction.

Beware, gaming addiction will destroy your life and goals. cheers. loled

Anyway, this clip came from a german documentary movie "Der Untergang" Downfall. It tells the story of Hitler's last days in his bunker. From this movie, one can see why Hitler was able to inspire and lead men , even to the very wrong side. Its his will and passion towards achieving his goals that drove ppol to support him. The movie is highly recommended to those who prefer movies with the essence that is able stir ur mind to analyze the plot and Hitler, his passion and his men. BTW it s not about shooting, bombing or transforming vehicles. So those who loves Transformer 2 plot, maybe this movie is "boring" for your type.

Learning Science and Math in English (PPSMI)

2009-07-10T10:09:00.003+08:00

Obsession in the grammatical error during a closed meeting

Federal government had decided to drop the use of English in our Science and Maths learning in our education.

The essential use of English especially in these subjects had recently be used as a form of political weapon. BN was running back and forth trying to choose the "right" answer not for the betterment of the country and her citizen but rather to find a way to garner most votes by not angering etnic groups. The way the politician choose is really narrow minded. The way the ppol oppose the PPSMI are so narrow minded. I got a really interesting comment from fellow Malay in Chedet blog. It sounds this way

"When the westerner go war wit latest technology weaponary. we Malay still busy with our "Pencak" "Silat". Konon mempertahankan tradisi Melayu. Similar to the topic of PPSMI, kononya mempertahankan Bahasa Melayu.
Go for people REFERENDUM to re-instate teaching of Maths and Science in English I urged!" by fazfazzy

How about the Opposition leader, Anwar? This is another interesting candidate. In order to poke the BN in their face, he chose the side that can kill BN most effectively. To choose the side of Bahasa Melayu, would definitely create discontentment within UMNO's hardcore "Malay" because they rely on Malays who supports the interest of Malays. If goverment chooses Bahasa Melayu, then moderate and elite Malaysian would be angry with BN. This is a stalemate. As far as im concern, Anwar is playing political chess right now, and not fighting for the betterment of our citizen.

I had been thru Kebangsaan school, and learned Science and Maths in Bahasa Melayu. When one wishes to enter college or University, if he/she doesnt have the basic command of English, it would take ages to revert Bahasa Melayu terms into English. Lucky me, i studied in Bukit Bintang PJ, where English is widely spoken among students and sometimes teacher and i took tuition on Science subject before i enter college to revert those terms. For those who donot have either of these opportunity, what would be of them ? Ultimately those who try so hard to protect their respective ethnic language will also be eaten by it.

Selangor's Free RM1000 for undergraduate students

2009-07-09T13:36:00.003+08:00

Permohonan adalah terbuka kepada Warganegara Malaysia sahaja.

2.Pemohon mestilah terdiri daripada rakyat D.Y.M.M Sultan Selangor Darul Ehsan yang memenuhi kriteria-kriteria seperti berikut:
(i)
Pemohon lahir di Negeri Selangor; atau
(ii)
Ibu atau Bapa pemohon lahir di Negeri Selangor.
3.
Pemohon telah ditawarkan tempat untuk memasuki Tahun Pertama (Semester Pertama) mulai Julai 2008 sahaja.
4.
Pemohon telah ditawarkan tempat untuk melanjutkan pengajian secara sepenuh masa (full-time courses) di IPTA atau IPTS yang diiktiraf oleh Kerajaan bagi pengajian di peringkat Ijazah Sarjanamuda atau Diploma sahaja.
5.
Pemohon telahpun mendaftarkan diri di IPT bagi memulakan sesi pengajian.
6.
Pendapatan isi rumah Ibu Bapa/ Penjaga Pemohon berjumlah RM1,500 ke bawah sahaja

For those who are looking for the application, please download from this link

http://rapidshare.com/files/253669721/BORANG_PERMOHONAN_HPIPT_010808.pdf

Cat's activities behind ur back

2009-07-04T12:39:00.002+08:00

Horror scene!! LOL

2009-07-04T12:37:00.002+08:00

Failing to care for roof maintenance KILLS

2009-07-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

One More Year

2009-07-02T12:50:00.003+08:00

When i got my schedule for my master in advanced manufacturing course, heheh i tot i could be a lil laidback. Oops turned out to be the opposite. On the first class, we were told and given an assignment of doing research and writing report and to be submitted in 7 days time. Well one subject is ok, but if all 5 subjects were to be the same, i guess i will be kena tapaoed... sad case ..

Lord of the RIng , a simpler alternative..

2009-06-30T14:56:00.003+08:00

LOL, i m a fan of LOTR trilogy, i find this method being the easiest and safest in comparison with walking the entire way. The Eagles was the best aerial weapon in LOTR,so there s no way Sauron can prevent them from infiltrating using this method. They failed to close this big plothole lol. Kudos.

My Favorites

2009-06-15T13:37:00.002+08:00

As simple as i am , i do actually have plenty of favorites. Let me begin the list by starting with my :

1. Favorite weather
Chilly, heavy storm of evenings, dusks or dawns

2. Favorite Breakfast
Western breakfast such as orange juice, sunshine egg, bacon, hams, and sausages, and of course my fave bun with clumps of butter. The best bun i had ever eaten came from the Ship rest. or the one from Federal Bakery in KL

3. Favorite main meal
Rib eye steak , medium along with sumptuous baked potato

4. Favorite dessert.
Dont really like those stuff...

5. Favorite pastimes
Relaxing in my own garden especially on a large iron swing. Pm. w/o any people peeping on me

6. Favorite activity
Shopping at dead-quiet malls during weekdays or night (sound like Silent hill episodes), Walking at real dead quiet gardens, parks or forest w/o any humans.

7. Dream house
Large single storey detached home, installed with laminated wood panels, room to sleep, living room to watch movies, study or office room with loads of my types of books complement with a good couch right in the center and of cos with a good stereo system, a complete kitchen, a detached shed as my working shed, a large garden with the plants i planted, and finally a very large orchard a distant away from my home.

8. Dream trip
Without being anxious of time, i and my loved one has months and months of precious time travelling by ourselves across Europe (Italy, Hungary, Scandivadian region, Belgium, France, most of the places). When i say months i meant it, lol.

9. Dream job
An owner of several profit making business(i donot want to be an owner of several busting biz of cos), having one of two reliable managers to execute and manage the business, where i would serve as pioneer of new profit ventures or new direction for my businesses.

10. Dream capability
Able to assist or help hopefully a large scale of helpless people that i happen to stumbled across news, or physically.

The flash video of yoyo and cici

2009-06-10T14:19:00.001+08:00

Really impressed with the creator of this clip. the emoticon fits the song most of the time .

The interval between life station

2009-05-29T15:41:00.004+08:00

Copyright © 2007 davidwallphoto.com

Like footprints on the beach, looking back at the trails of your previous phase of your life.Well it 's only 2 days after i graduated, i already start my soul searching. Lol.

It is a sort of self evaluation, especially when your previous era had just pass away in a blink of an eye. This is the time either you have the clearest of mind, no distraction at all, when you were strip away of all your studying and worrying life. Well either that, or we have no idea at all during this transition.

As i began to look into myself, when im strip of daily routines and worries from my Engineering course, what is left is really, only me. Questions of where am i heading, what am i gonna do daily, what have i achieved so far yet, and many more

What Am i Gonna do Daily?

At this age, when you are no longer so into games as before, much of the time of the time in your life is back in your hand. And along with the end of my degree life, i actually have all the time in my life , right now. Besides sleeping and eating, what i should do daily to feel fulfilled? Not gaming anymore certainly, they time and life draining vampire. I guess i have to determine right now. Let it be i set to finish one of my precious book , the Intelligent investor for one, and secondly, i would take up two or three essential project during this 3 empty weeks. Hmm what project then? Ok first and second is refurnish my old resume, and also to settle the banquet, wedding ring, BS and videohgrapher. The third is to take up something that can enhance my skill which is something computational? Maybe something on operation research. Guess i will study a necessary industrial problem and build a computational solver utilising VB and microsoft excel. Ok then that really spice up my holiday, filling up my time. Well i guess this is life, its all about filling it full with something that worth your time, even though that makes me busy. If i dont i might fall into disuse, or waste my time in games again or waste it in sleeping and watching movie.

What have I achieved So Far?
For a start i would say i am not a super achievers that i should had been if compare with some of my old friends. Nevertheless i am still am very contented, contented with what i had achieved thus far, and set forth to grab even more achievements that are all waiting for me from this point on. Achievements yea? Well i have stick closely to my set goals; CGPA > 3.0 , having "some" savings in acc for wedding, getting into Master degree along with MOHE scholarship. Well all of that i had been able to achieved except for the biz acc. Hopefully it would have some leftovers from my wedding. hmm. For my domestic achievements, i had set the course running already for our wedding. The other achievements that i do really cherished is my relationship with Esther throughout all these ages. haha its gonna be a decade couple of years later. Intangible achievements are such as the success in building extraordinary rapport, and showed myself as a very reliable and aspired person in my 3 months training, to have known the field that i would want to be in, and etc.

My greatest Regret?
Well a very sensitive issue here. The were numerous heartbreaking moments and trials, even though i smile all along during those process. I would just speak of non personal ones to prevent harmful effect on readers. First and foremost my greatest regret thus far in decision making is the Diamond scheme. I went into it during my trial times, when my life is in turbulence and much of the direction and sponsors isnt clear due to conflict. Instead of listening to my logic sense and Esther's opinion , i went the other way and go forth my my first uncalculated destruction. I followed my emotion so much and switching off my logic sense for a period back then. It was so depressing and suffering during those time. I remember smiling with friends and family as though nothing had happened. I remembered, remembered the time when i chose to keep lying on the bed most of my time , having the depression and pain in myself. I chose to keep sleeping over it and hide all these problems from myself. Guess what, they will haunt you even in your dreams. They do, nightmares were plenty back then. Well of cos i learned my lesson and paid my "lesson fees" of course.
The were other regrets in family issue too but i would dwell on it in my diary instead. Wanna know? Pay me or steal my diary , lol .
My third regret, minor want is that as of today, i am still hesitating in presentations, which is one of the skill which i wanted to have all these while. Also numerous attempt to plunge into business is hold back because of my planned marriage. Marriage needs money, i and Esther both tried hard to fill it up. Yea there were several opportunities but i chose to turn away because i dare not touch our precious anymore, partly i dont want to burn it up in flames like the previous case. We vowed to start building up our biz stash right after our marriage because that is what we really want, or at least what i really want. Marriage preparation is never a regret though, and the sacrifice i had given is not in vain, the regret i have is the incapability for me to cover both my ambition and marriage issue together.

Trust vs Facts & Figures

2009-05-25T10:29:00.007+08:00

In God we trust. It is a concept where we as Christian should not doubt the bible because it s the absolute, it is the Word of God. So no arguement there. What i am asking and arguing here is :

Is it the right way to trust the words the "person" you admire so much without needing any sort of facts, figures or any information? i am stating person/human, not questioning about the Lord.

Well its not that i am having this problem, it is just that i cannot stand when people prefer to rely and put their trust based on the relationship with the person. Sometimes it make me sick and disappointed. It is like saying the fact that the food is good is not bcoz it is tasty or you personally tasted, but it is based on another person's account that you trusted, and you are willing to bet with your head. Cool yea?

I personally believe that our ability of our brain should be used to analyse, filter, breakdown the facts that are being told even by your very very trusted people is the right thing to do.. Why? Reason is rather clear, because the person you trust with your life is not God, misjudgements, mistakes, exaggeration can be very apparent in human conceptual of facts. And i believe; to analyse facts that comes from your very close is not undermining the trust, if the other party is thinking so, the person itself might have to deal with their own pride. Nobody shud ever think that their words is always correct or except that person is from the Lord. We were taught and have the capability to think and analyse empirically during our younger times why not make good use of it ? Brain is given to think; even when you are writing a report you need to cite your source, so that we can return to the original source and read the methodology on how the original writer comes to the conclusion. We should not trust just because he s from MIT, he s a Caucasian or he holds a PhD.

To some, my tots are unbelievable, wrongful method or just plain crap. To them sometimes, it seems that switching off the thinking part and uses your heart to embrace the fact said by the person you trust is just enough.

New Phase : Dicipline in Cash And in Study

2009-05-23T00:14:00.004+08:00

My phase of undergraduate life is about to come to a closure by 27 May 2009. Many of my friends opt to getting a job, while i decided to further my study and get a Master in Engineering Management. Why the change? Actually recently the government decided to subsidies those who had just graduated so that they would go for postgraduate instead during this downtime. Well i am one of the hopeful taker (feedback on the acholarship approval would be known by next week). If this goes well, i will face two new challenges. First the money, second the study.

For the first, actually we had planned for some time about marrying the next year since i and her would be working already. But if i am taking a fulltime Master, i would not be able to work. In conclusion i need to be a little more prudent, and along with our previous savings and with credit wedding next year, it would be fine , anyway , the savings we had all these while is halfway towards our objectives.

For the second challenges, for me to attained the Master, there 's two requirement, firstly i have to achieve an overall CGPA of 3.0 and above and secondly i have to deal with another year long thesis. I already had enough of thesis writing, it is really draining up my time and emotion throughout 2008/2009 thesis writing. Where else achieving CGPA of 3.0 and above means i cannot play a full this time in the year long course.

My bad, my bad. well of course the upside is i would not have to suffer in future if i wish to take up a Master course as it would take up to 2 1/2 years for doing part time. And it is no fun to take away your weekends for like more than a 100++ weeks. Of course if i dont take now, i would either hope that the company i m working for would fork out cash for the course, or i have to deal with it myself. SO maybe , cheers it is the right decision, just work harder, and i will reap all the effort of being dicipline and prudent in just next year.

Cheers.

Couple Edition ltd. 2007 Casio

2009-05-22T23:34:00.004+08:00

For some of you who followed my thread about me looking for this couple watch, i have to say i am sorry. I had actually made that up that "searching topic" to cover my secret and made it so real that i am still desperate to find it. The main reason is to give a really surprising and special engagement gift when she thought there would not be any chance of finding it anymore. It is hard being a con man on this issue for like about a year , since may 2008.

Well to be honestly true this time, i actually got it some time back, but i still did some routine inquiries around watch shops whenever i went out with Esther. On how i get that limited watch? That watch came out by End of November 2007. Back then we thought it would still be in the market. We began our search like during late February or March 2008 , looking everywhere for it. Seriously every watch shops. But no luck. So i tried my luck in the internet, coming across some dealers that had just sold out the last one. I asked him to help me source it, and i am willing to pay a premium price for it. When i say premium , it is really PREMIUM. Thank God i was decisive enough to jack up the price, lest i would regret for not buying it.

Now we are proud owners of this limited edition watch (given as special engagement watch)

Goal setting

2009-05-01T11:00:00.002+08:00

Goals is some of the objectives set by the very person, so that he will be motivated or drive towards the objective. However goals are not the same as pipedreams. Those are dreams and aspiration without any physical commitment. Those were plans like i wanna be "somebody" or i m gonna buy "something" without a solid purpose, and also without substantial planning or long term positioning so that the very person could drive himself towards the dream that he has.

Pipedreamers also tend to boast of what they want to become, or what they have achieved, so that their ego is boost , and any attention given to them would feed their continuous thought that they actually on the way to the dream that they have. But for a goal setting person who is constantly committed to achieve it even at the expense of sacrificing many many things, they were oftenly pursuing it without loudspeakers, without the need to get their morale boost. Why ? because these people have a solid planning, solid structure on the actions of lifestyle they have to stick to that realisticly will bring them towards the goal, they have the confidence in them, rather than needing external assistance. These are the very people that would be successful, not those who spend plenty of cash to show that they are on their way to by showing the materials that they had successfully attained.

Goal settings is a good trait that should be learned and practice by people with aspiration. Why set goals u ask me . Goals is metaphorically is like a reasonably high post that the very person that set it there would like to jump past it. It is also like a bullseye in archery or gun shooting. Those settings enable the person to be very focused on what they one, they keep trying keep practicing keep striving for that very goal. And at the end of the day if they really failed to achieved what they had planned, they would most likely be practicing enough to be 90% near the goal that they set. Now that's the good thing about goals, they bring u forward no matter whether you successfully or failed to achieved the goals. A person without goal is like a person who wishes to shoot at an imaginary bullseye. They shoots here n there, imagining that they are close to pursuing a real target, where in reality it is not . They do not have a focus, hence they will always be changing their course or their pursue. Pursuing other things instead. Then they have to start all over again.

Goal setting does not take much, it takes only a month or two to think about what do u wanna achieved in 1-2 years, 5 years and 10 years goal. then have a full day free to draft out the plan u made. When that is drafted, fractionized the 1-2 years plan into months, let's say u wish to saved that amount of $ in a year, u calculate it to month so that u can check urself, and be dicipline to stick with it. At the end, u will get what u set for. Just make sure 5 years goal is the subset of 10 years or the preparation of 10 years , so is the 1-2 years to 5 years , so that the whole plan is cohesive. Setting plan is easy, the dicipline part is difficult.

Our life is not eternal on Earth. Some lives up to 15 some 40 some 70, but what is important is that you strive to achieve something , you wont waste your life. Wasting life without a consisten focus, is the last thing anyone wants to have. These are the very people who will look back at their life and sigh.

MTB Proton T Bolt ~a steal for Beginner~

2009-04-23T10:14:00.003+08:00

PROTON T-BOLT CARBON FIBRE FULL SUSPENSION MOUNTAIN BIKE

Wanna get 2 units of this, market price in Malaysia now as of Apr 09 is around RM850. Sienz, where to get $$ to feed my hobbies...

All terrain, cross country, dirt trail, downhill; full suspension

The most complete monocoque carbon fibre mountain bike in its class. T-Bolt's sweeping, sculpted shapes are muscular, clean and dynamic. It's not all aesthetic- this is beauty with purpose, form with function. Structural strength and rigidity are increased by the sinuous form, the indented side walls.

Tapered cantilevered forms focus material where the stresses are greatest. Additional carbon fibre in high load areas, and internal structural rib stiffen the bottom half of the frame. the composite carbon fibre construction allows redical shapes, in a unique frame so rigid and so light, it offers an extremely comfortable ride and excellent performance.

* Frame: T-Bolt carbon fibre monocoque, 100% hand made with alloy swing arm
* Fork: RST Capa
* Rear Shock :DMN Torch
* Stem: kalloy Black
* Handlebar:Kalloy Black
* Headset:1-1/8" alloy anodised black
* Cranks:Truvatic Black
* Front Derailleur:Shimano Deore /LX
* Rear Derailleur:Shimano LX
* Rear Cassette:Shimano 11-32
* Shifters:Shimano Deore /LX
* Brakes:Textro Disc
* Rims:Taurus 2000 anodised black
* Hubs:Formula 32H
* Saddle:Velo Black
* Seat post:Kalloy Black
* Sizes:16",
* Colour: Orange colour ONLY,
* Overall weight: 13

People play Paintball in Tanamera

2009-04-15T15:51:00.002+08:00

Youtube Paintball in TanaMera

See people play so fun, i dont really have the $$ to play , sob sob

Whole package comes out about RM50-RM80... who wanna sponsor me ?

Countdown ticker

2009-04-07T14:00:00.005+08:00

MySpace Countdown

Good Things

2009-04-07T11:31:00.002+08:00

I had been pondering so much on discontentment, maybe i should nullify some of it by speaking of good things,

1. I am glad for Amuta's family , and 7 children
2. Difficulty handling children but i persevered, lol.
3. I am glad with my progress and headings (uni)
4. I am glad i have exceeded my targeted objectives with Esther.
5. I am glad with the sales approximation for our group CISS.
6. I am glad that i know where i should be heading (C**r**)
7. I am glad to be with Esther.
8. I am glad that im finishing my degree course
9. I am glad i have spoken to Aunt Nancy and Sis Laiming about headings

Some wishes.

1. Back to the time when our relationship was honest and purposeful.(y**t*)
2. ---

Modern Pharisees, Indeed

2009-04-07T10:55:00.002+08:00

I stumble upon this picture, wou , how great the resemblance of todays pharisees. Sometimes, church become so rigid, it seems everything you do out of the box or out of the tradition is a sin. There are times, single parent ministry who fought hard for simple reason to help the struggling parent have hard time finding sponsor. The reason for that is simple, the one who has the heart for this ministry did not go through the mainstream church bureaucracy , and no prominent Pharisee leader is placed in there to make this ministry an official one. It is funny how we are so desperate on what sort of food to eat for our dinner, when yet a family of 8 (1 mother 7 children) have only one single choice, and did not think much, they drank only milo and biscuit for a couple of days until they became so desperate to embarassingly ask for food. It s funny how people pour cold water when asked for small fortune of monthly sponsorship, saying " wah , got milo to drink not bad wat".

Welcome to the Pharisee's courthouse.

Preaches but DO not ..

2009-04-02T23:44:00.006+08:00

Rachel Corrie memories

April 14, 2008 by skipschiel

I’m here for other children.
I’m here because I care.
I’m here because children everywhere are suffering and because forty thousand people die each day from hunger.
I’m here because those people are mostly children.
We have got to understand that the poor are all around us and we are ignoring them.
We have got to understand that these deaths are preventable.
We have got to understand that people in third world countries think and care and smile and cry just like us.
We have got to understand that they dream our dreams and we dream theirs.
We have got to understand that they are us. We are them.
My dream is to stop hunger by the year 2000.
My dream is to give the poor a chance.
My dream is to save the 40,000 people who die each day.
My dream can and will come true if we all look into the future and see the light that shines there.
If we ignore hunger, that light will go out.
If we all help and work together, it will grow and burn free with the potential of tomorrow.

—Rachel Corrie, aged ten, recorded at her school’s Fifth Grade Press Conference on World Hunger

She was killed by a bulldozer operated by the during a protest against the destruction of Palestinian homes by the IDF in the Gaza Strip

I am actually impressed by the action taken by her to actively change the situation faced by people who struggles to live their life, no matter how naive it was to help the Palestinian. To majority Palestinian is terrorist , whole bunch of murderers, but i prefer to see it that both sides , the Israel and the Palestinian is at fault, and the actions of their leaders plunges the helpless children, mothers, and others into needless death and poverty. U may wanna claim who is more bloodthirsty, but i prefer to see that both side, do have real life threatening casualties. Citizens from both side are at loss, only leaders gain.

I am impressed that she walks what she preached. She has the heart and she did what she could. I am frustrated that many in my circle preached about charity, love, hope, but refuse to give a small portion of fortune that is God given when there are families in need around them. i scoff, i scoff at their surface righteousness, their authority in the "society" because they do not walk the things they preached. Pharisees presence are so apparent. they judge, the rebuke you, yet , behind the veil , they do not practice what is being taught.

Looking at these pictures, it is observable that people who sincerely took action is easily condemned and judge even if they loss their life, and the people who only preached and do nothing most of the time is reveled as holy, righteous and a good man. It is really funny to see this.

Quoted from http://skipschiel.wordpress.com/2008/04/14/rachel-corrie-reincarnated/

Salah satu cara kita Menghormati Budaya Cina

2009-04-02T17:53:00.008+08:00

Quotation from Malaysiakini, Independent Internet based news portal

BN's sexy girls fish for votes in April 2009 by election

Please read only if you have watch the video : )

After reading this ridiculous news, it just consolidate my understanding on how much the BN MPs knew about the Chinese culture. As a chinese myself, it never come across my mind that

"Short skirt, hot dress Shaking on the stage singing 'shake, shake, shake' is part of chinese culture, and even if u do not think so, from this moment on U MUST LEARNED TO ENJOY SEXY GIRLS SHAKING AROUND, because if u dont, u know nothing about respecting the chinese"

The stage singing and dancing was actually part of the activity "endorsed"(helping in organizing and sitting in the midst) by some of the "prominent" leaders in BN such as

1. Ahmad Zahid Hamidi, the newly-elected Umno vice-president and Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department in-charge of Islamic affairs

2.Gerakan deputy president Chang Ko Youn

3.BN candidate Ismail Saffian.

I do not know about you, but as for me, after watching this video , and the "brilliant" logic in saying that the "on stage shaking" is a way to respect chinese, my perception changes. I guess i would be surely voting for BN if im in bukit gantang. LOL . of cos i would only do that if my brain competency is up to our some of these BN leader's standard and same frequency as theirs. Guess i m too dumb to accept the logic and truth behind it.

Mr Zahid when pressed on quoted as saying that it is part of the chinese culture.

BBBSS Bukit Bintang Boy Secondary School

2009-04-02T10:57:00.000+08:00

"Nisi Dominus Frustra"

Unless the Lord is with us, our labor is vain

Psalm 127

¹ Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.

I had been in BB school for so long that i dont even know our school motto, which has so much meaning instead of just scribbles of unknown Latin.

I had been in primary and secondary school of BBBSS for 11 years. This is a tough skool to be in , partly because of the often all powerful and strict control of dicipline and assignments.

In the primary school, the strictness is unheard of. I still remembered back then, prefects were all powerful, because of the discipline level maintained by the headmaster , Mr William Doraisamy. You know you might be whack for having a sweaty back, because that is the evidence of you running around before assembly, and running around is hazardous, so you are convicted. SPANK. haha. those were the days

Purpose of this Blog ?

2009-03-31T11:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder? what am i doing with the blog , pouring out what i felt yet refuse to show it in anyway so people could see it. Maybe its me, i hate to share or let people know my real emotion. I had always controlled and disguise it in a very skillful way. Of cos as long as i have SP. LOL. somebody close to me will know what is SP. Of cos sometime when no SP, disguise is just too shallow. a very faint fake smile usually.

i didnt know a good reason to publish my blogs, still. But i wanna publish it yet do not want people in my circle to read it . Then why publish ? lol, the cycle goes on , it dont matter , i always do funny things. Not a pcycho though.

Life in A ChessSet

2009-03-31T10:36:00.002+08:00

I just wish to illustrated some " event" with chess set methaphor. Basically i am always a person who plays the chess without immersing into the chess floor myself. My goal ? Is to direct my pieces to God's purpose and have Christlike attitude. This game was tough, u know, at times, the pieces dont wish to move along the direction because they have their own mind, some of them, and some even wanna win the game for themselves, they want to be the champion of the game. Others would prefer to bond with one another and donot even want to participate in the direction.

Yet i persevered all this while, till that very day. I had never thought my Queen would be taken overnight. He was meant to be the strongest piece, to control and defend the board, who is someone i tot could turn the tide. It was a commit suicide though. That was my one last piece. One the other hand, the other person chose to step aside and become passive due to massive confrontation by internal revolt. So all i left now is the king and some individual pieces to have the game on. I tot to myself, without 2 person closest to the board game and adheres to the games purpose , i am unable to make any moves.

I had been good in strategy and structure like action. But the very last 2 dead pieces, caught me offguard, i m leaving the game, as i see that enemy Queen is close at the throat of all the pieces. The pieces were fond of the queen so i will leave it for them to judge. I am tired , all these years of struggle i had been pawned by Queen. The last board game, that was my fault, lingering in questions about the death of my close friend aka small sister and i chose to sit passively. But this, totally is my lack of leadership.

Sometimes i wonder, staying out of the chess floor suppose to empower the pieces and to give them confidence, yet to some, i might not be dedicating enough time. Being personally there, i had never believe in that sort of leadership. Leadership is mentoring leaders and in hope that they could take over the direct rule of the floor board game if at all possible. Well all these years, guess i had to change chess floor to a new ground that have proper guideline(a more walk the talk leadership and better sermon) in church too.

Remembrance of Kim Ying Shien

2009-03-22T00:48:00.005+08:00

Even as years to years passes by, the memory of her lingers still so close me. She had always been a very dear and close small sister to me, the one i really took care to groom and concern about. It s just still so hard for me to accept her death but nevertheless I sincerely believe that her departure meant for a purpose that i am unable or weak to see, but surely God does not do things in vain.

That very night, i was there throughout all of it till morning when she departs. I was there the whole night praying,crying,questioning,having "faith" . Why is it have to be her?Why no miracle was done? Why maybe miracle will happen anytime soon? Why? Shes only 15 ,,, 15 ....It was a very tough nite, some accepted her fate, to some , like me, believing that God will do a last minute miracle , constantly lingers in our mind. It was more on soul searching and in hope for till 6am we were informed her kidney is not functioning anymore. I was with her in the ICU when she departs, her closes are all calling out for her, but i was too overwhelm and i thot to this day too controlled to say a thing. Tears just kept rolling on, and so it does once in a while even now. It is an overwhelming process to go through, the moment of hoping her to be healed miraculously, doubting, praying, n seeing her breathe her very last. I will never ever forget the moment. i had so much pain, dissapointment, regrets over my head for a very long time. Regrets of not giving her the very very best when shes around, regrets of not saying a word in ICU, regrets that i accidently broke her birthday present n didnt buy a new one cos of money issue, regret that i wanna replace one when shes in hospital but failed to decide to buy it(the vivid memory of the tortoise), Regret of not opening up my heart and speak from my heart when she was in the hospital, im damn blardy controlled, i still hate myself for my self controllness even today , very much regret myself. Her 3 weeks ordeals i was always there whenever i could, staying outside whole day if i could, the saddest thing happen was that at her very pain n her leukemia, she told me, if im busy dont bother coming, its still her attitude that stands out even during her suffering. Those of her words are still lingering. Her look, her weak smile to assured us. She is strong n courageous. I was with her the very first day of ICU admittance she admit , i m bloody useless and wasnt able to share my honest opinion with her, only just keep assuring her its gonna be alrite, its gonna be alright, pushing her wheelchair. i was so afraid... At times she will hold tight my hand, trying to communicate something, trying to speak or share something, i m dumb for words,i have no words of console,i m so controlled to try to say the right words that i say none, these scenes just linger on...

And as a leader i failed miserably to address or even dare to mention any sort of matter regarding shien to the group. Some losses heart and faith because of the strong prayers and faith we had...i dont even know how to address, i myself got myself stumbled.

76csx garmin gps

2009-03-13T18:14:00.002+08:00

Cheapest found is RM1450 @ 1 April 2009

Casio G Shock Couple Watch

2009-03-04T19:42:00.003+08:00

Just wanna share this G shock couple watch. I had been looking for it for ages, since its limited version in April 2007 and i only starts looking for it in Dec 07. So guys if anyone of you have this set, and wish to trade with me , please let me know ya. Thankx

Awareness & Ignorance

2009-03-04T13:05:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when we began to look around and observe, peering across how some of the people around us behave. Looking long enough, you would realize that as they search for meaning or fulfillment in each of their lives, individually they fell into two typical group, in terms of carving a path in their life.

Some, tend to set plans, try their best and strive for it without any guarantee of success. Some are good planners but weak at executing it. Contentment, and lack of dicipline usually stack between the plan and the action.

There are another kind who usually have lot's of fun, minimal planning, flow as it goes attitude. They just do not bother and let situations and issues drives their lives. They might not have any medium or long term goals, yet it seems their lives are somewhat fulfilling. Reaching for what they desire at that point of time, such as travel to countries you always wanted to visit, getting the material that u had always been desiring, etc

Life of WindChasing

2009-03-03T20:53:00.001+08:00

" Better one handful with tranquility than two handfuls with toil and chasing after the wind.

Ecclesiastes 4:6 "

Time and again i have to always remind myself of objectives in my life. It is interesting to know that it is always better to live modestly in peace, than working and stressing all our life after something in vain. Position, wealth, power and all at the expense of our emotions, friends and God's will for us. When it's all over , it would be far too late to look back,and regret, hoping to have the rewind button in your hand.
For someone such as I, i find that the movie Click by Adam Sandler, particularly interesting. Its really a good movie on the aspect of chasing after something and wasting life to find it not so important at the edge of your remaining days.
Its important to seek after the very core things that matters in your life, but never let "insignificant" moment in your life to just pass you by without cherishing the moment. Time does not wait for us and moments goes in a blink of your eyes.